Wow – it’s been a year. It’s been 12 years. It just doesn’t seem like that long.

I’m sitting here looking at pictures – starring at them – just looking at them. I look into her eyes and it seems like I should be able to talk to her. It just doesn’t seem real. She is gone. Forever. For-ever.

Wow – that just doesn’t seem possible. I just don’t know what to do with that possibility. That reality.

Now is not the time.

Oh my god. my god.